It's so damn hot... milk was a bad choice

There are just some people out there you will never get over. I don't want to go into too much detail, but if it was something that had ended badly, I could pick up the pieces and move on. But when it's something that has yet to happen (but in my mind someday *hopefully* will) it's so difficult to erase this image of perfection that makes everyone else seem subpar. A girl can dream. It kind of pisses me off b/c I'll always be looking for someone just like him and there really isn't anyone that could ever match up. Sigh.
Last night Jessica called me b/c she had a free ticket to the Trainwreck show (w/ Kyle G. from Tenacious D) so I hopped immediately into the shower to get ready for the outing. However, when I got out of the shower, she had called to tell me the show was cancelled. So it was back to my original plan of laying around, albeit w/ soaking wet hair. I watched this movie called "Dopamine" on the Sundance channel that I really like, though I'm not sure why. I just did. But I only saw the first 45 mins and last 5 mins b/c Pankti called me to chat and I felt guilty not answering (considering I've been doing this a lot lately). I also tried to write a little on this story I came up w/ yesterday. I can't write for sh*t, so I gave up pretty quickly. But it's still in my head, so maybe it will come out again when I feel inspired.
Yesterday I was in the worst mood, the kind where I felt like I was going to cry for no reason. This ended around 9 last night, thank f*cking god. I don't know if I could have taken it much longer. Emotional instability is a b*tch. But today is much better b/c... ain't nobody gonan break my stride, ain't nobody gonna bring me down, oh no, I've got to keep on moving (may or may not be actual lyrics...you get the gist)
Yours truly,
Reagan